Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Diets, Diets, Diets

Diets how many have you been on? Did it work? For how long? Chances are you have just answered : tried all of them, and either yes or no to the second question, and if it was a yes, you probably kept the weight off until you went off the diet. Am I right or am I right? As my daughter likes to say!

I have been on so many diets and have had the same results in all of them , you lose the weight and gain it back twice as fast and then your no where nearer where you wanted to be in the first place, you took one step forward and then two steps back.

I want this blog to be about my journey of losing weight and to help you understand where I am coming from I have to start at the very beginning.

I was never the fat kid growing up, I think I was pretty average. I remember being pretty active bike riding, skating, skiing, and running I did my first 3k when I was 7 years old I remember training for it. I was also into swimming, gymnastics, baseball, and basketball. My parents decided to separate when I was 9 1/2 years old and we moved from a small town to the city. I lived with my mom and brother. I am not sure how it happened  but maybe it was the stress but I slowly started to turn food for comfort. By the time I was in junior high I became the fat girl. I started my yo-yo dieting then, I tried all different diets to lose weight and they didn't seem to help much.especially when I had stresses in my life I remember being able to eat a whole McCain chocolate cake for lunch or a big bag of chips for lunch, I always ate in secret I never let people know how much I was eating or what I was eating. In grade 11 My friend at school who was another "fat girl" lost a lot of weight one summer and came back to school I was impressed, I started to get serious about losing weight I  began to watch what I ate. I started to exercise more, and I started smoking. I believe that I lost weight and was able to keep it off for longer periods of time because I was smoking . I had something else to occupy my mind and hands with other than food. I was also part bulimic. I didn't always make myself throw up only when I had binged so much that it made me feel so sick.

By the time grad came and I had put the dress on I had bought in the winter I had lost so much weight that it was too big on me.I went from being 185 to about 140 in a few months. After grad a lot happened I got a full time job, rebelled against my mom, moved out with a much older guy,and found out that life was way harder than i thought it was to be. by the time I turned 19 I lost another 15 pounds That was my lightest adult weight and I don't even have a picture of it I am sad to say.125lbs I was at that weight until I was pregnant with my first child, at 16 weeks pregnant I lost my baby. I turned to food once again and four months later I was up 5 pounds and learned I was pregnant with Katie, I gave up smoking 3 mths into the pregnancy but I ate healthy my cravings were oranges and pineapples (this maybe why she hates pineapples to this day!) I ate salads and fresh veggies everyday. I also ate a lot. I was hungry all the time and no morning sickness at all (not so lucky with the other two kids). My relationship had failed and I moved back home with my mom this was the best thing I could have done I should have swallowed my pride and moved home long before I did. When I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl I was 165 I came home at 150. Sadly when I was done eating for two my mind and body didn't think I was and I kept on gaining weight. After I came back to work from mat leave I was a whopping 180 I gained 30 lbs after I had my daughter. Then I met my Knight In Shining Armor , the love of my life and I gained 20 lbs while dating him, I tried to lose weight while going to school full time and taking care of a toddler planning a wedding and doing loads homework trying to keep up with the housework and laundry, but with the stress and convenience of having a car and getting fast food all the time I sadly did not lose anything, but happily I didn't gain anything either.

So that's 200  if you have been keeping up with the numbers. After I finished school I couldn't find a job in my area of work so I worked at Subway as a manager (words of advice never work as a manager at Subway not worth the aggravation and stress) I quit the job after 4 mths of nothing but stress. I found out 6 weeks later I was pregnant with my son I gained 36lbs with him and I craved nothing but junk I was also bedridden for 7 long months I am surprised that I didn't gain more. I am glad to know that out of the 36 lbs 25 of them were water weight and maternal fluid, If you did the math yes my son weighted 11 lbs. I quickly lost the weight.I gained with him I worked really hard and was well on my way to losing the rest of the weight I had gained while dating my husband and from gaining before and after my daughter. ........and then we had an ooops in the bedroom and learned I was expecting our last little bundle of joy. I gained 25 lbs with her. It took me about a year to lose the whole 25 lbs with her.

Last year I was able to lose10 lbs it took me 3mths and it was very frustrating because I was working hard to lose it. but apparently when you get older and stressed out it's harder to lose weight. So I have been yo-yoing between 190-200.

I will be getting a new scale this week (and hiding it from my kids they seem to break all of them) and each week I will be weighing in and giving tips and keeping a close track of my calories and fat, and writing about my raw emotions , my stresses,my happiness, and just maybe I can keep track of myself to see where I go wrong and where I go right.

Thanks Sam